The following post is written by a missionary to South Asia.
One of the most fundamental words spoken over my life is “enough.”
You’re not good enough.
You’re not pretty enough.
You’re not smart enough.
You’re not ____ enough.
You’re simply not enough.
These lies soaked into my innermost being and consumed my world. They handcuffed me and walked me into extremely dark scenarios as I searched for being enough. I claimed the concept of not being enough as my identity and who I was, instead of declaring Christ as my identity and seeing myself from who He is.
A few years ago, I had the unique opportunity to spend six months in Southern Spain in order to intentionally pursue God’s heart. While there, I fought and wrestled with Him on many levels.
There was much healing and restoration I needed to receive from Him, but I challenged Him with everything. I allowed myself to feel anger, joy, sadness, peace, exhaustion, and rest. Over time, I had taken the identity of not being enough, and stamped it on God to say that He wasn’t enough for me. Maybe He was enough for everyone else, but definitely not for me.
Well. Good thing I used washable ink.
In the midst of this battle with Him, I had a dream where I encountered Jesus in a completely pure and divinely intimate realm. The following morning, I jumped out of bed and danced and sang and laughed and ran around. I saw my friends and hugged them and cried and giggled because it happened.
I had experienced the true love of Jesus. I had looked into His deep blue eyes as He held my face and said, “My girl, I love you, and my love for you is enough.”
My life changed that day. I had believed in Jesus for almost 20 years at that point, but upon seeing Him face-to-face, everything now was different. I finally believed that I am enough, that God is enough, and that His love stretches far beyond anything I can imagine.
As believers, our task is to make sure we do whatever we can to bring as many people as possible to the table of the Father so they, too, can experience and receive His love that is enough to save us from our deepest darkness.
And I know without a doubt that the Father’s dining table is big enough for each of us.
So, will you come, bring a friend, and sit there with me today and experience the joy of His love that is more than enough?